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ExHGSSgt

03-06-2008, 04:03 AM

First of all, I would like to talk about my merits. I am former Air Force, four years Active Duty and three years Reserves. My service times were both cut short by 1) an early out for school, and 2) for medical reasons. Both were honorable miscellaneous AFR whatever number discharges.

I served on Honor Guard in Florida...was stationed there for two years. I also served in Germany for a year and a half during the Gulf War. I worked in Civil Engineering on Active, and Medical in the Reserves. I have received outstanding unit with two oak leaf clusters, basic training, good conduct, national defense service ribbon, and overseas long tour ribbon. Wanted like Hell to go to Antarctica and float weather balloons as a meteorologist, but AF needs came first.

I worked hard on many construction projects, sweated my butt off in the Florida sun in my BDUs, helped take charge of closing down an airbase in Germany, was certified in Fire Alarms and Security Alarms (JSIIDS). Had some good buddies. I may have found one on classmates.com but I haven't bothered to pay the fee to see who the two guestbook signers were in there. (One name of a guy I served with was in the site, but I'm not sure he signed my guestbook, cuz you gotta pay to get in).

I stayed out of trouble, never had any major medical problems in the Air Force except bronchitis and the occasional respiratory infections (that was always my weak point).

Now, after having got out, I have been in and out of school. I finished my two year degree with a lot of zest after I first got out of the service. Graduated magna cum laude...served on a two-year college honor society.

I was hospitalized for my first time around 1995, just after graduating from college. Since that hospitalization, I have been in and out of hospitals about twelve times as an inpatient, and probably 100 times at outpatient. I lived in a transitional home for awhile that was mainly for veterans, which I found out through the VA hospital.

I started a claim with the VA, which got denied twice. Since a rude person from DAV never returned my call, I had to fill out the three incident reports myself. This was the beginning, I feel, of the screwing over. I tried, in vain, to appeal, and was rejected twice through Chicago I believe. Never saw combat but applied for benefits anyways. Served as security police augmentee during the Gulf War in Germany under ThreatCon Charlie conditions. Carried a machine gun. Had a couple of close calls which were unnerving.

I am currently living overseas in Asia. I have been over here for about three years now. Part of the reason I came over here was that I was sick of the transitional home, which, in my opinion, was mismanaged by a power, money and status hungry CEO. I worked for $100 a month full time for him. I was also receiving Social Security Disability benefits, which started about five years ago. Lived on those and my parents' help for covering the cost of the home, left, told my mother never to give me financial assistance again and that I would figure things out for myself from now on. (She's nearly 70 now). I'm still living on Social Security and have tried to get back to work without much success. The money doesn't take me far. It's enough, but not enough for much else after paying for medicine and anything else I might need.

I'm trying to get some help for reopening my claim. I called a local hospital here and talked with the doctor. He told me in truth that he tried to write two letters for people like me and they were refused. Denied. At least he was honest. Now I'm wondering, as I've let a lawyer back in my home state know about this, is how I can go about getting a diagnosis of PTSD (I know you can get coverage for other disorders, but I've heard it's next to impossible) over here at a hospital that would be significant...or would I have to travel to the Philippines where I know there's a VA hospital with doctors that can probably do this. Has anyone had experience with this? It's been a long, hard time since my first hospitalization after college. A suitable disability income would sure help me out.

My nickname is ExHGSSgt because I am an ex-Honor Guard Staff Sergeant (this was my separation rank).

Robert Ryan

03-07-2008, 10:22 PM

Get yourself a service representative if you haven't already, a DAV Rep, American Legion Rep, or VFW rep, your state VA office can also provide you with Representative service. They can help get the ball rolling for you.

Packo

03-08-2008, 09:05 AM

You have come to the wrong place to try and drum up support for a phoney claim for PTSD. 99% of all the guys on this site are Combat Vets who had more than "unnerving" experiences. Being on alert doesn't make you a Combat Vet and does not qualify for PTSD. You've been sucking off the system or your family long enough. There is a way out though. Take a pistol, put it to your head, and blow your friggin' brains out. It irks me that your getting SS Disability when real combat vets have to fight their asses off after working for 30-40 years paying into the system, then being rejected. You didn't get a reply from the DAV because they saw you were filing a BS claim to start with. Your one of the guys that clogs the system up for all the returning real Heroes from Iraq and Afghanistan. You'll get no sympathy here.

Pack

Bill Farnie

03-08-2008, 09:12 AM

b3196

03-08-2008, 09:24 AM

First of all...Thank you for your service to this great Nation (of which you decided to leave).....With all that being said. I do believe Pack covered all the bases in this game.
Good luck in your quest to milk us taxpayers, .
From a Vietnam Vet who served proudly and collected only a VA home loan (Of which I did pay off in full)

QM3steve

03-08-2008, 01:05 PM

Gentlemen,
I told my wife, before anyone posted, he was in for a rude awakening.

ExHGSSgt,
Not being one to have had any combat time, I'm not one to talk about it. I was shocked to see a new member come in and use the words "I, MY, and ME", the number of times you did. "I" 43 times, "MY" 15 times and "ME" 5 times. Had you paged through this website, prior to your post, you would have found that there are stories of unnerving experiences that would dwarf your own. Step back and read for a while. AND, if you wish to fight your battle, fight it back in the US like all the rest of these veterans have. You'll get a lot more respect.

"Ya gotta wanna, or ya never will!"

Stick

03-08-2008, 01:08 PM

First off, welcome home and thank you for your willingness to cover our ass while in the USAF and doing whatever it took to get the job done. Uncle Sam didn't send you into any real combat and you can be real thankful for that blessing. PTSD isn't a catch all for anyone that has served this country to pad their deck for the rest of their lives just because they figure they can scrounge up a few more buck$ off Uncle Sam. Many of us here have been and know first hand what it feels like to get shot at. We've relived those experiences many times over and over again within our entire being. We understand exactly what the letters
P-post; after in time
T-traumatic; physical or emotional shock causing psychic (Psycovets?) effects
S-stress; mental tension
D-disorder; out of order in the head.
In a nutshell it means "been there, done that," and having a hard time getting away from it. Gimme sum pills will yah Doc? Don't wanna hurt nobody no mo' and I'm a nobody doncha know?
Leave the guns in the hands of the hunter and enjoy the benifits that the hunter willingly gives you. That hunter is, on occasion hunted but thanks to him, you're free. Thank that hunter and give yourself a pat on the back and move on.

Keith_Hixson

03-08-2008, 06:33 PM

Packo and Brother Bob's kind hearted responses.

Just reading between the lines. I'd say you don't have a legitimate claim.

Keith

Gimpy

03-08-2008, 09:52 PM

ExHGSSgt.........BOO---F*CKIN---HOO!

Gimp

locksly

03-09-2008, 12:26 AM

Welocme to the site. Thank you for your service to this great Nation .

b3196

03-09-2008, 07:53 AM

Mah der southern bro, the honorable Gimpinski.
You southern boys have a way with words...... LMFAO

Keith_Hixson

03-09-2008, 08:58 AM

For a liberal you aren't very PC. You keep saying you are a Southern Liberal but your language tells me you are a just another Southern RedNeck.
Gimpy could you tell us how you feel? :)

Keith

splummer

03-09-2008, 09:18 AM

Living off his 70 year old mother and Social Security disability, then filing a couple ptsd claims for being in Germany because he was holding on to a big bad machine gun. [living in transitional housing for 3 years]
I don't think this guy is for real. He's probably some school kid just trying to get a few laughs on this site.

b3196

03-09-2008, 09:36 AM

You're probably right Steve, if this is true, it's definitely an end result to his maternal upbringing.......With that sense of humor, He's probably the child I fathered during my wild years

MORTARDUDE

03-09-2008, 10:42 AM

The letter was made up to piss us off, which it did.

Larry

QM3steve

03-09-2008, 11:28 AM

Could this be Ron?????

splummer

03-09-2008, 11:40 AM

I wondered about that too.

b3196

03-09-2008, 11:49 AM

Steve and Steve
I don't think so....In my quick scan of this Goober's post, I didn't notice any misspelled words. Fairly decent sentence structure. I still think it's my "bastard" son that I was not aware of.

catman

03-09-2008, 12:03 PM

Although you may be right about who it is not, I do not see this a$$hole coming from a renagade cop with 7 endictments for prisoner abuse! Whatever happened to that video tape anyway?

Someone pass directions to the mountain to this pough! I would gladly pay for his trip back from whatever Asian country he his hiding in! Would love to hear all about the stress of carring that big bad machinegun in 1990's Germany first hand! Maybe than, I could show him my little scars, Sid and Ray could show there big ones, than we could beat the $hit out of him before all getting a good night sleep!

Trav

b3196

03-09-2008, 12:08 PM

Trav
Anything is possible, He does have good literary skills. If he would just post a pic of his mother....Preferably one from nine months before he was born. Then I should be able to tell if I boned his mom, or not

catman

03-09-2008, 12:19 PM

Guess given his assumed age, that was the time frame when you were working in the projects of Indy wasn't it?

And we thought we had PTSD claims! Ole Booger here was in the bad bush nightly back than!

Trav

PHO127

03-09-2008, 12:46 PM

Get a F#ckin life. You want unnerving experiences come visit Psyco Mountain in Georgia the last weekend of April. Just the poker game should give you PTSD. Be sure that a Smith & Wesson WILL beat 4 aces and a suppressed Walther P22 will take any acey ducey hand.

Unnerving experiences my ass.

QM3steve

03-09-2008, 02:36 PM

Could Ron have possibly gotten the latest edition of "Hooked On Fonics?" Or he spent more money than mouth on spill check. He WAS smart enough to try other screen names... On the other hand... and I use that term loosely, Bob, I have to agree with Trav, that he couldn't have come from your loins. He's too much of a whiner. Quick! Someone call a Waambulance.

catman

03-09-2008, 03:17 PM

Could be, he is just an "A Rab sint hear to make me made!"

Trav

P.S. My 70 year old mom would not give me the money for phonics lesson, so I never learn how to spell, plus it is just waste my time to hit spell check!

QM3steve

03-09-2008, 03:35 PM

Bob might want to keep a low profile if he belongs to him. Mommy might be able to nail him for back child support.

splummer

03-09-2008, 04:18 PM

Just the thought that there could be another [little] Bogger on here, is an unnerving expereince.

MORTARDUDE

03-09-2008, 06:40 PM

It is BS for sure no matter who did it.

Larry

Keith_Hixson

03-09-2008, 11:30 PM

I'm bringing my new pheasant hunting shotgun when I come to the Mountain. I'm going to break up that sinful poker game, and protect you men from brother Bob and that Blonde Bombshell Gracie.

Keith :D

Stick

03-10-2008, 04:24 AM

Isn't it amazing that the original poster of this thread hasn't opened back up and replied to those that have answers to his (or hers) questions? He (or she) hasn't been back to the site and said anything for four days now and this is his one and only post. Ron was never afraid of opening back up and offering a contrary opinion.

b3196

03-10-2008, 05:28 AM

QM3Steve
I hope we lived up to you and your wife's expectations of ripping this PUSS a new asshole.
Speaking of assholes.......Do you know what they call hemroids on a Homosexual?
.
.
.Speed bumps
bOOger the ole Protologist

littledickens1

03-10-2008, 07:23 AM

I can't believe you would have the balls to come here and ask for support of a false claim for disability! There are so many out there who DESERVE the money that they can't get because of putzes like you! You make me SICK! I was never in the military, but my father (Stick) is a Vietnam Vet, my boyfriends brother is now in Iraq, his daughter is in NY with her husband on Fort Drum awaiting orders to fight for this country, and my niece is living in Korea with her husband. I am proud of them all! And guess what, every one of them is doing something that they can and should be proud of. I am proud of all members, past, present, and future of our military, and they all deserve much more than they will ever get from this country! Guess what? You are one of the reasons they will get so much less! People like you who milk the system for everything they can get! You want more money? Get a job! You never even mentioned what you were getting disability for. You were proud enough of your country to serve here, but she isn't good enough to live in!?! My guess, you are just one of those who saw an easy way to go to college on government funds. You did that, use it! You have taken everything from this country that you earned and then some. Put your head back under your pillow and SUFFOCATE!

Keith_Hixson

03-10-2008, 10:31 AM

Bob K. just to stir things up because he was bored. We all know he's a sicko. Time for you meds Brother Bob. :xx:

Keith

MORTARDUDE

03-10-2008, 12:23 PM

For those you didn't get the word : The first post on this thread was made up...probably by Ron...It is BS.

Larry

Keith_Hixson

03-10-2008, 01:28 PM

I'm sure it was BobK. It had to be BobK.
Ron wouldn't do something like that. :rolleyes:

Keith

QM3steve

03-10-2008, 02:07 PM

Bob,
We did. Nothing like giving someone a "virtual" blanket party. LOL.

b3196

03-10-2008, 03:15 PM

Keith
I've done some pretty stupid things in my life.....but not this time. Now I'm still leaning towards the fact that I might have created one dumbass....unless he's under the age for emancipation......Then I deny....deny....deny. and no DNA sample without a warrent, besides, I'm blaming this after-birth on Travis. He's been known to dip his noodle where it don't belong

catman

03-10-2008, 03:52 PM

likewise on the DNA! And as far as I know, I have never had an Asian "Noodle Dipping", or is that dripping?

You claimed it first, it is all yours!

Trav

pete v

03-11-2008, 05:45 AM

Before I went to Nam for real I flew over it one time on my way to Bangkok. Does that count?

ExHGSSgt

03-11-2008, 06:46 AM

Welocme to the site. Thank you for your service to this great Nation .

Thanks Locksly. Did you pick your nick after the Great Sly Stallone? I haven't seen Rambo IV yet, but would like to.

ExHGSSgt

03-11-2008, 06:52 AM

Nothing like giving someone a "virtual" blanket party. LOL.

Ha ha ha. I never did get a real one in Basic. I was too clever.

Actually, one can do a claim for mental and emotional illnesses other than PTSD. I have a brochure on it from my VFW rep.

Bill Farnie

03-11-2008, 07:02 AM

Incoming

b3196

03-11-2008, 07:50 AM

Hey Sgt Goober
Take that pamphlet and do everything it tells you to do. Then put it to some good use and go wipe your ass with it

Pete V
It only counts if you flew over Germany carring a BIG machine gun

Boats

03-11-2008, 09:01 AM

Keith_Hixson

03-11-2008, 10:15 AM

This guy's claims are so off the wall, I'm absolutely certain its a joke to yank us around. And, he's done a good job of it. Probably a kid between the ages of 16 and 24 with lots of time on his hand. He does a little research and gets everyone of us upset. He's had a great time reading our responses and getting a chuckle out of yanking the chain on us old geezers.
Bill you got it right!

INCOMING!

Keith

b3196

03-11-2008, 11:08 AM

Brother Keith
I'm not upset and I'm not an old geezer. I'm just practicing my many years of training that I gave up when I retired.....It's like jacking off a wildcat with a handful of cockleburrs...:)

Keith_Hixson

03-11-2008, 02:47 PM

Brother Bob I now understand why you are so ugly. It isn't your fault its your hobbies.
".....It's like jacking off a wildcat with a handful of cockleburrs..."
Hobbies like that will make you ugly. No wonder they call you scare face. :xx: :xx: :e:

You need a new hobbie. I know its challenging but is it safe?
Let's go play a game of golf.

You may not be an old geezer but you are closing in rapidly.

Keith :D

catman

03-11-2008, 08:13 PM

A good laugh, just read this clown's bio! Not only is he a big fraud, fake and a wannabe he openly admits he is "heavily into tanning"!

Must be some of that "Don't ask, don't TAIL" kicking in here!

Trav

ExHGSSgt

03-11-2008, 11:30 PM

I'm not sure if I can add anything that hasn't already been said. But why you left the US has me a little worried? This country never guarantee's anything other than to point you in a direction and hope you stay on the trail. I think your path in life needs to be reviewed and your concerns need to be discussed with a professional person. Your service to country is appreciated - but your motives and reasons for some of your issues - isn't totally understood?

Your pretty young and a little misguided right now and gong overseas into another country will not really help you find your way and could result in putting yourself into harms way. You must have family there but its still difficult to see why you up and pulled out. What are you running from?

I left the U.S. because I was tired of living in a group home with people who were mentally retarded. I was the only one in the home who was my own guardian, so I could leave at any time that I wanted. There was no alternative but to come overseas, as I had a lot of debt and it was nearly impossible to get an apartment. When I told the group home manager that I was going back to uni, he said, "And I'm going to be a brain surgeon." There was no way for me to take classes there in the home, but since I've been overseas here, I've completed more than five terms online going part-time, and am closer to my bachelor's degree than I have ever been before in my life.

Things got kind of messed up during the Iraqi invasion. I couldn't sleep and I wound up at the local airport, parking my car in the towaway zone, thinking Saddam Hussein was sending secret Arabic brainwashing messages over the bigscreen TVs in there. The security guards took me away to the PIC and that was the first time I was ever involuntarily admitted by someone else.

What you say about what I'm getting at is true. I guess this is not really a self-help forum. I tried another one, but there were too many sick people on there with really rude attitudes. Sick people often can't help sick people, I guess. I have tried professionals, and I still do, but they're fewer and more farther between over here where I am now.

I wasn't really running from anything. I was, however, running from what I thought were imminent poisonous gases and the impending invasion of the U.S. by Iraqi bombs, etc. during the first few weeks of the Iraq War. I was in a transitional place afterwards in which I felt stuck and felt I had finished learning everything that I feel that I had to learn in that place. I read books (a lot of books) on my condition. I remember reading before on a veteran's forum that one guy was misdiagnosed with something else that was actually PTSD.

It is theorized by an academic under whom I studied that those with lower intelligence can tend to get PTSD easier than those with higher intelligence. I find this hard to understand because I've been very good in my studies (graduated magna cum laude from my college) and I was even in the gifted program back in elementary school. I did, however, talk to myself quite a bit in the Air Force. Used to go off on the military base in the middle of the night in my dress blues, and during the day to a clearing with trees around it talking to myself and getting ideas for my journals and stories that I wanted to write.

A claims worker also told me that I may be able to get claim money based on depression that resulted from the AF not giving me the job that the recruiter had promised me...based on EPRs/APRs, etc.

Keith_Hixson

03-11-2008, 11:36 PM